I am Wanda
I am Sacred
Today was a beautiful day of service in a Mayan Village called X-Can. It was a sacred day of heart connection, the leader of the village is named Chele. She greeted me with her grand babies at her side, with love in her eyes and a warm hug. As I arrived in the village with a plan, I quickly realized my plan wasn’t the most needed one. I brought three goats for the children (there are 22 of them), and noticed immediately the children were all barefoot.....they needed shoes, more than the goats. My friend who is a physician agreed to stay with them, hand out the toothbrushes and do examinations while I found a store to purchase footwear for 22 children. It only took me two hours to complete and to return. Seeing them put the shoes on and walk around was so fun and we had many giggles. The importance of shoes to keep children healthy is a new concept for them. They enjoyed the goats so much more, AND the goats were loving all the attention.
After the mornings work, Chele asked us to please sit with her and share a meal. I initially felt guilt over this. We had an interpreter and he said it was important to her, but I wanted her to save her food for her grand babies. She served hibiscus tea, she killed and roasted one of her chickens and fried yucca plant. She is a beautiful lady, she says she is in her 70’s. She looks like she is younger than me, her skin is vibrant and her hair is jet black with no gray. As we sit she asks if she can ask me a question. I say “of course”. She asks (thru an interpreter) what I regret the most. I am silent. This is a profound question. She reaches out and grabs my hand, she looks at me and says it again. I reply “I do not regret anything I have ever done, I only regret what I have not done or said”. She says, today you begin again and do all those things..... She is a wise, strong, leader of a village.....a survivor but I know more than that. She is a spiritual being, intuitive.
As I drove back to my hotelito her voice is going on and on in my head. Why did she say this. What does she mean. I ask my friend Cesar, the interpreter who is a beautiful man of service to the Mayan community if he understood. He said, I am overthinking, it is simple. To say yes to life the way I say yes to service. To say my feelings when I am feeling them. I ask him about Chele, he said her name means Goddess of the Jaguar. I begin to cry.
I began my day being of service, being the hands and feet of God, following my heart. I never view those in need as any different from me, as they typically possess a stronger spirit and are JOYous beings. Today was no different. I received more than I gave.
Lessons of Day Five: More YES and no regrets.
PS: I did not take photos of the children or the village, it felt too sacred to me....I also didn’t plan to share any parts of this experience in the village today. But writing about anything else felt inauthentic and I would regret it.